When I fly solo I fly so high

the feeling when you think about a person who has impacted your life so much that you just get so overwhelmed with feelings that you get this pain in your chest? not like a bad pain but a good one? my heart skips a beat everytime i think about him, and the things he says to me and about me. I know its soon, but I dont care, I love him. and he knows it. The happiness that runs through my veins when I wake up in the morning knowing he is mine is absolutely amazing. I do not think that in my 20 years of living I have ever felt this way about anything or anyone, and Im pretty sure ive never had anything or anyone on my mind as much as he is. I am so happy for myself, I know that sounds selfish but I deserve happiness and I finally found it, and hes amazing and hes all mine and I could never ask for anything better, because there is nothing this is the best thing to ever happen to me. and I will never give it up as long as i live. 

thank you all for caring. <3 

but thinking about so much more. I dont know why it bothers me, and why those types of things just dont leave my mind. Im so sorry the amount of pain you went through I wish I could have saved you. I know it wasnt my fault but at the same time I feel like there was something I could have done. Love you aunt kim. always. 

why i am where i am and where i plan to go. things are starting to go down the positive side for me, but at the same time im scared. 

“you wanna know how many women i’ve slept with over the last ten years? … hundreds! maybe more, i don’t know; i barely see their faces. i married wendy because i was lonely. because i got tired of the endless disconnect. it was just a sad timeout. because when i’m inside someone, there’s only one face i see.”

he says: That’s from sons of anarchy. And honestly, if anything ever happened to us…I’m 100% sure that’s what’d happen. Not the hundreds of girls thing, but the not being able to think of anyone else expect you. Any girl after you wil be nothing to me, I’ll only want you

So many thoughts going on in my mind that I honestly dont know what to do with. Im happy but at the same time im not. sigh, so many things i need to figure out. but one things for certain, i will have you by my side<3

I just thought it would be different..but it’s happening. And I’m scared to know what’s going to happen.

I’m the happiest girl in the whole entire planet. I can’t even explain how happy he makes me. My God it’s fantastic

That is all